It’s funny how as life goes on and other activities happen, we forget to remember.
Today, I had a long day. Today, I am tired. Yesterday, I felt sad as I reflected on the ache I sometimes still feel at the loss of my relationship with one of my closest friends. Last week, persons pissed me off. Last month, things didn’t work out the way I expected it to. Months ago, COVID disrupted my life and all the plans I had. Our minds just have that innate ability to zone in on all the negatives; reflecting only briefly on the wins. The truth is we are all perpetual pessimists…some more than others.
Tonight, I had a great reminder of the importance of my mindset and what I choose to remember when I came across one of Maverick City’s most recent songs “Remember“.
As I listened the song, I felt myself choking up as I remembered: January 2020 I could have lost my mind. What started as an amazing day full of potential ended in one of the scariest days of my life with me unable to speak and my mind spiraling into what felt like a freefall with no end in sight.
Yet, at some point during those life altering fearful hours, my mind hinged onto Tasha Cobbs Leonard’s Goodness of God and I found myself singing at the top of my mental lungs until the song of God’s grace and goodness fought its way through and burst through my lips. This release triggered events that were so well orchestrated that it could only be seen as God stepping in before anyone even knew I would need help. I was delivered.
Yet even after that win, my mind remained stuck on the negative. I struggled to sleep in the dark or alone. Fear reigned in my life for months. These were months in which, during the day, I operated as a woman with a cheery personality and smile. Yet, at nights, I turned into a scared little girl. I would lie awake, skittish at every sound, and unable to sleep if every shadow of my bedroom was not illuminated.
This was the cycle of my life for months until once again God stepped in an called me out on my bull: “I did not deliver you for you to be consumed by fear. You are meant for more than this.”
That morning, determined to step out of fear’s shadow, I found myself sharing my terror of the dark with my friend. And that night for the first time in months, I slept alone in the dark…with a friend who, despite being thousands of miles away, chose to stay up all night, on call, in the event I needed a sense of security.
So today, last week, last month or the last few months may not have been the best of your life but how can you forget to remember? How can you forget the experiences when you thought “this is it…” but Jesus saw it fit to step in? How can you forget? He saw it fit to keep you then…He will certainly find it fit to keep you now. That’s the goodness of God; the Christ who gave His life for a group of people when He didn’t even know if they would receive Him. Just remember.
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